SNY.tv obtained journals from Brown in addition to emails he sent to his wife and letters he wrote to friends. The materials were turned over to law enforcement in King County, Wash., after Brown was taken into custody in May 2015 and charged with fourth-degree domestic assault. “I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man,” Brown wrote in one of his journal entries. Below that, he circled the words, “I have abused my wife.”
Brown’s ex-wife, Molly, told police the kicker abused her more than 20 times, but the NFL defended its decision in August to only suspend Brown for one game –– even though the league’s domestic violence conduct policy calls for a minimum six-game suspension for first-time offenders. The league said it didn’t have enough information to “corroborate prior findings.”
Brown, 37, also explains how he abused his ex-wife in these documents. In a signed “Contract for Change,” which the couple presumably drafted in therapy, Brown says he has “physically, verbally, and emotionally” abused Molly. “I have been a liar for most of my life,” he wrote. “I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.”
Brown also fesses to “viewing [himself] as God” and Molly as “my slave.” In addition, he calls himself a sex-addicted “deviant.”
The New York Giants haven’t commented on these latest findings. In August, Giants head coach Ben McAdoo said he respects Brown as a “man, a father, and a player.”
This article was written by Alex Reimer from SB Nation and was legally licensed through the NewsCred publisher network.